颜色

黑色是邪恶的象征, 白色乃是纯洁的表现. 不同的颜色有它独特的意义. 那属于你的颜色是什么呢?

颜色原本是很单纯的一个词语, 不过随着时代的变迁, 颜色的定义也有所改变. 或许人类已经到达了自我的境界, 所以别人的利益对他们来说也并非重要了.

以前, 我认为这是一个花花世界, 充满着活力与色彩, 漂亮极了! 但是, 随着慧眼慢慢地张开, 心中不禁有所领悟. 美丽的颜色似乎再也不象以往那么的美丽了. 美丽之所以会模糊乃是人类的步伐太快了, 因此往往无法静下心来欣赏世界优美的一面.

人类真的可以达到"真, 善, 美" 中"美"的境界吗? 我不知道答案, 不过我相信自己已接近真相了.

"灰"或许是现在代表的颜色: 是"朦胧"的....是"肮脏"的....

希望有一天, 世界能再次洁白来. 不在灰暗了.

那么, 现在代表您心中的颜色又是什么呢?

Teach me...

Learning to love...
Learning to give...
Learning to smile...
Learning to be fun...
Learning to overcome myself...
Learning to mingle with the youths...
Learning to walk by faith and not by sight...
Learning to struggle with You and find rest in You...
Learning to look beyond my inadequacy and into Your loving hands...

There are so many things to learn and I am tired...
Sow and you will reap... Paying a price... and this is the only way...
Give me courage to learn and sow; so that I can stand firm and tall...
I am still learning... Earth is still moving... Passion and compassion... I need them both...
Self-pity come near me not... Negative feeling loves me not... confusion touches me not
All I want is a clear mind and moving towards your plan...

Benjamin Chew Quote: Learning to stand is not enough... What it matter is how you stand through.

无言

。。。。。。

Which way?

天空依然是蓝的，树木依然那么翠绿。
时间依然地走着，地球不停地旋转着。

一切似乎平静，心中却无宁静。
心中的心情为何就是难以平复。

我的心何时变得那么脆弱不堪？
我的心何时承受不了那个重量？
我的心是否突破不了那个门槛？

我寻求的东西是否是我想要的？
我是否已走错了方向，耽误了前景？
我依然是我吗，还是已失去了自我？
我到底想要什么？谁能解开我心中之结？
我要的并非我想的，我想的并非我要的。
世界奇妙，心理矛盾。无怨无悔是否达到？

我要的却不知是什么？
走的越靠近却不知何时又迷失了方向。
心中的忧虑谁能了解？是否放弃还是坚持？
心中的苦水何时能变得更为甘甜，我也想知道，可是。。。。。。

可是。。。或许。。。有可能。。。
放弃是最好的选择。。。。。。

不过。。。但是。。。也许。。。
坚持是那把心中的钥匙。。。。。。

不幸。。。不行。。。不信。。。
只好埋头苦干到最后。。。。。。

相信。。。坚信。。。深信。。。
或许是曙光的开始。。。。。。

恕我吐出心中的郁闷，知音难寻，只好向无影之徒哭诉。　

A time for dynamic change

Hi guys... It has really been a while i come and write something on this blog. Kinda of lazy.. All because of the wonderfully holiday I had gone through. This year Church Camp was definitely a good one and I really receive a lot from God in regardless of His word and His healing power.

Prologue:

Yesterday was indeed a fun time where we had a GM gathering at East Coast Park (ECP). These group of lively youth each hidden with talents and a different story to tell. Though their ways of expressing themselves, it has proven that each are unique in their own special ways. Friends and friends forever is what marks the bond of this young lives. They are precious and they are vulnerable. These young ones hold what it takes for tomorrow.


Getting into it:

Though I was thinking of posting on a title name 《十四岁男孩的烦恼》initially, but after looking at these young peoples, I think I would rather change it to 《十四岁男孩的理想》. Nevertheless, I feel each has the ability to do what they can if they believe it.


Knowing many young ones has indeed enrich my life and widen the horizon of what a teenager is like today. Well knowing them having much great fun. I feel a dynamic group of young people is rising up from GM and will make a difference in many of the lost; if they were to stand up and take up the mandate.

One friend I knew yesterday, his name is Inn Kee, nice name anyway. He is someone I feel that he is cheerful and playful at times. Well this what a youth is like ba. Anyway, this brother that I had know give me one impression - outgoing. I not going to write what you said to me yesterday la; cause i know you are playing with me. :)

Conclusion:

Dudes, I better get going. Holiday is coming to the end soon. It will neither be affected by H1N1. So may everyone enjoy your last few days of holiday as well as getting ready for school ya :)

Take care and God bless all who reading this post. ;)

My Lovely Class 2009 ...

Hi guys I know you all are fed up with words now let me feed you with pictures.. :)

From the left: Ju Heng, Jence, Yu shan, Yi Ting

From Left: Ye Qiang, Matthew, Jun Wei, Sok Cheng

From Left: George, Bill, Ye Qiang, Shi Qi

From Left: Qing Wei, Ying Qi, Sheng Ting, Ming Yi

Qi Sheng The Most Vocal One

Jun Jie The Kung Fu Master

Eugene The Cheerful Boy

Na Yi The Most helpful Girl

Chang Xin The walker and Not the talker

Jack The Actor for the year of 2009

Hi pupils of Macpherson Primary School, you are all missed . Study hard, do well and strive for excellency. Jia you :)

The War is over... Challenges on her ways...

DingDongDongDong~Dong Dong Dong Dong~ Well sound familiar? That's right this is what we always hear in school. A sound that we all always look forward to. It tells us that, hey few more hours to recess.; few more hours to home. I guess this sound will surely be missed by me. Why? Because I had graduated as a full-pledged beginner teacher. Though I will still hear the bell ring, I believe that would not be the same as before.

As I looked back my life, things have not been easy for me. I must say it was a year of venture then. Stresses are bound to have but the whole mentality of facing it is rather important. As I am typing, my heart feel the pains that i faced in the past. At the same time, I also feel the joy for able to walk through this long and uncertain journey. The laughter and tears we all once shared; te goals and the visions we all talked about; the compliments and arguments we all gone through had really made us united and strong. Thanks for the companionship. A friend who curry favor and take advangtage of you is rather alot; whereas a true and transparent friendship is rather hard to find. My friends in NIE and STP, I really enjoy the days we are together. Well though we may be seperating or some of us; remember the bonds we once shared.

My heart feel like crying not because I am emo, but the tears of joy just want to rushed out from the bottom of the supression I had been going through. The supression of fear and uncertainties; the supression of anger and disappointments and such. I must really thank the Lord for what He has done. In the past, people questioned me and said: "hey is this really what you want for the rest of your life? Are you sure you will not regret it. Brother be realistic, go for better career." How discouraging ah. Anyway I saw God's faithfulness even when I doubt Him. I saw His love embracing me. I saw his discipline over me. My soul and spirit I trust in Him. You lead me through even people do not trust me. You know I detest all those feeling from peoples. Yet You had taught me the meaning of "iron sharpens irons". I am not worthy yet you place your stake on me by dying for me on the cross. A grateful heart is what i feel now.

This is the day I proudly say and I want to tell the world that this God I am serving is real and awesome. Go on and say He is not real. Go on and say He only bless the riches. But I must testify from my burning heart, He is a God of realness. A God who never give up on His children. A God who is there through the darkest moment of our lives. Who shall be against me when the Lord is for me.

Practicum... I had done with and I had fight a good fight. I had run the race and I had done it well. God leads me as you bring me to the next phase of life. God I need you! I need your love and strength. I need the favor of Yours and mankind. God the challenges You had given to me, I will strive to overcome it.

Thank you Lord. Though the war is over, challenges are still on her ways. I am ready. Don't you dare me!

Halfway through the war!!!!

Teaching Practicum, a time where we all grow and be matured to be a a full pledged teacher...

Times really flies, and I had finished half of my practicum. These five weeks have been exciting and draining. I must say being a teacher is really about passion with love and having the overflowing fire to sustain through the ups and downs.

These five weeks I had learn many things from my school mentors and definitely many through self refection. Especially in the area of classroom management... I always thought classroom management is easy; but it is only a yes when you are take a High Ability (HA) group. While those who are less disciplined and Low ability (LA) ones, you really have need the 2Ps: Passion and Patience.

The class I taking happen to be of the LA groups, though one my class really give me a headache, I do enjoy teaching them. I love to see them learn and participate. Whenever they do well for their spelling I would be on cloud nine. Not because I teach well, but from them the motivation of saying; "I not going to let myself to be where I am." This cause my Spirit to dance with the class.
At times, they seems so lost and uninterested, but I prayed that they will continue to press in and see their dreams.

My another class is really cute and fun loving, they are pretty intelligence though they may struggle in their study. Ha ha, who don't struggle.

O yes, 5 more observations and 1 from supervisor to go.... umm.. I pray tt God's favor and grace will continue to lead me through. And my class will also do well in their SA1.. 100% passed.. :)

To be updated soon...

Pressing in

This race is a race where price is needed. A price to sleep at night, the price to endure through all challenges. A price to stay focus despite of all tiredness. A price to pay as a Christian to live for God in the midst of my business. However these does not cost when you know that Jesus have pay the price. These will not cost much, when u noe your friends are running these race with you. I remember there this saying:

"Don't walk behind me,
Don't walk in front of me,
But always walk side by side with me. "

Yes, a real friendship can really motivate you and challenge your day; and empowered you. To end of this, I will leave some verses
to encourage of us even when we are tired:

1 Corinthians 9:23-27 (New International Version)

²³I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.

²⁴Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.

²⁵Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. ²⁶Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. ²⁷No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

God bless and have a fruitful day ahead especially in our practicum. We CAN DO IT! :)

YeaH就是这班!

昨天是我们暂且在NIE的最后一日，大家过后就要背起重任，前往战场奋斗了。这两年来大家咬紧牙关，努力战斗，终于熬到今日，因此，大家可说是个不简单的 人物。这一班所带给我的回忆有许多许多。这些回忆不但增添我人生的色彩，同时也让我理解自我。你们的优点总是是我学习的方向；你们的人生观是我对人生有着 新的认识和体验。在这里，我看见我成长了。以前那幼稚的思想似乎已离我而去；那成熟的想法仿佛也正在向我挥手。这两年说长不长，说短不短，但是却是却因这 两年，我的视野开阔了；让我尝到了人生的酸甜苦辣；也让我学会了包容与容忍。今日可以和大家相会，也并非偶然；我相信这是一种安排，所以我珍惜这一切：一 切的友情、一切的欢乐、一切的纳闷、一切的伤感、一切的奋斗和一切的一切。虽然昨日我们NIE DIP ED 读书的日子已画上句点；不过我相信这段友情是没有终点的。大家谢谢你们。我们这一班的风云人物太多太多了；将来有空时，我将一一介绍；大家拭目以待吧！

STP (Special Training Programme) ，这是我人生的的起点也是转折点。这四年来确实有喜有哀。从一开始我认识了几名好友侠士；一直到我结交了另一班益友；总的来说，我只能说一个字：“ 好！”。虽然前者我们的友情不比以往；不够这份友谊是值得我时刻惦记的。后者，当然是我感激的。你们对我的鼓励和帮助，是我永无难忘的。这些年来，你们在 我人生最黑暗的时候，激发了我。当我得到不公平的对待时，你们挺身而出。此刻，我除了感谢还是感谢。尤其是子音，淑惠，競敏，雪仪和慧晶，你们更是我在 NIE这段日子所结交的良师益友。这不是奉承的话，而是出自内心而说的。谢谢你们！我...我...只想说我希望我在你们的生命中也扮演了一名益友的角色。

好了，愿大家在来临的实习周中，能大有收获！努力冲刺！让我们一起为STP增光；这样才不会辜负吴老师和男（洪老师）对我们的期望!

大家友谊万岁！

yeah就是这一班！

God cannot be created :)

Recently, I was posted by questions by my close friend - who created God? This is indeed a provoking one especially despite my penny worth of explanations. Now I realized that I need to be sure so that I would be able to answer. Just like the word of God said, when someone pose you with some question, you must be ready to answer them. Hence, I make some research and saw this video on the youtube which sound good. I thank my friend who dare to ask such provoking question to me; through that I am more sure of my faith. May you be blessed with this video too. :)

New wineskin; A river of life

Well, it has been quite sometime since the last blogging. Anyway, Happy Belated New Year 2009. In another 10 more days s Chinese Lunar New Year. Well kind of excited cos this year is a yrs of increase and changing in my life. Beginning of the yrs, it has somehow been reali stretching for me; haha end up rather confuse and lagging. Maybe this "computer mind" of mine is lagging ba... Umm, I think I need to change the "hardware" and "software" that is inside of me so that I can function well once again.. :p

As I look upon this stream of river, I feel that I really need to clear up the "Stones" and "pebbles" in my life; so that this river will keep flowing and not choking. In life, there are really many things that is not within our hands; and what we can do is to wait silently in the Lord. Sometimes, my soul is weary and heavy; it seems like the river have dried up. At time I feel the crack inside of me; and I really need a fresh air to breathe on. And this period is like a desert season which enter into my fragile life. Well, there are times I feel like giving up, but yet seeing this river made me realised that; by giving up will equal to the stop of my life. So I will keep flowing and not be hindered. :0

　Happy Chinese New Year! Have a Blessed Year Ahead!

在此愿大家都过着丰衣足食的一年，
家家户户出入平安，
爸爸妈妈青春永驻，
兄弟姐妹相亲相爱，
公公婆婆长命富贵，
莘莘学子学业猛进，
工作人士身体安康，
各界朋友友情持续，
你我之间未来光明，
神赐恩福，恭喜发财，马到成功。