Lord all these while I am searching... High>>Low>>Up>>Down>> and yet I am just like the Israelites that walk round the circle for "forty years"... Dad.. you have been sovereign to me.. Speakin and calling me to come back to your arms... Quiet as I had left you.. Causing this relationship to left unaccounted for... Making my life messy and confusing.. Yet you still did not give up on me.. Why? I think this is the love that melt my heart away.. Causing me to say Dad, pls dont let my heart stray away again.. I want You.. It is so easy to make so many mistakes in one minutes.. the thought of staying righteous before you is not a play but of carefulness.. Dad this is the relationship I hope and long for.. I thought that all these while you are real but yet not personal.. But the every things you had done for my life; had me realised that I am selfish in not acknowleding you... Jun xiong where are you? Are you lost.. Come back to the Father's side.. Simple is the answer; prayer cannot be a "need to" but "I want".. Word of God... I don't want to lost it.. Dad forgives me and let be commune and stay strong with you.. This race is challenging but YOU MEANT IT FOR GOOD.. Dad I want to be with You.. PLS DON"T LEAVE ME again..
Forgive me Lord for my ignorance and foolishness.. GOD I do not want to be suck in my the culture of this world... Have mercy on me... Dad... Dad... Dad... I feel so loved and Daddy never leaves me again. Sorry for all the disobedient..God I want to be serious with you..
Yours Son,
Benjamin Chew
16/02/2008
